Friday, June 7, 2013

WIthout a doubt, crying out!

It's been so long since I've last written an entry.  No wonder, I have two teenagers, a four year old, and two year old!  Can you say C-R-A-Z-Y house? :)

Our days start early and they end late. The little boys are quite busy and the teenagers have needs of their own.  Somewhere in there, Tim and I steal moments to have good long talks and share our hearts. Because I am pregnant with another sweet one (we call this our exclamation point as most likely our last), I am tired and cranky often. It's true, cranky! I don't have it all together and can't tell you the last time I have deep cleaned our home.

However, my circumstances certainly provide ample times to cry out to the Lord to help me, To help me not lose my mind, to not hide in my bedroom, to make a decent dinner, to engage with the kids, to desire His Word, to think on His things, and do well just about everything. Without a doubt, I could not face a day without my God!

I hope to get on here a bit more now that it's summer, it's a great release to at least sort my thoughts. It would be even more fun to have a dialogue with you!

Until next time,


Monday, February 6, 2012

Growing Family-Pics

Here are just a few pictures to showcase our growing kiddos.  At the time of this post, their ages are:
Justin: 15, Sarah 12, Sammy 3, and Luke 9 months old

Luke David (9 months old sporting 9 teeth)


                   "Hello world!"                                                                          

                      Sarah Grace


Justin Paul

Thursday, May 19, 2011

The Beautiful Gospel

I awoke this morning and immediately felt overwhelmed as thoughts began to fly through my head faster than I could process. Obviously, not a great way to start the day. I got out of bed anyway; you have to when you are a mama of four.  And honestly, I think that's what did it before I even opened my eyes- I am a mother of four!  I made it down the hall way and out to the couch still aching from my c-section.  With one eye propped open, I sat down and watched Sammy run around and listened to Luke fuss as he awaited his bottle.  My attitude continued to run down hill as I contemplated the day ahead of me. Although I would never want to be away from the kids 10 hours a day,  I secretly envied Tim as he got ready for work. Finally, the little brothers and I sent Tim off to work.  To top it off Sammy gave me  a bit of a fight to go in his room for his  daily "reading" time. Luke went down for his morning nap and it was time for me to be renewed.

With a steaming cup of coffee I opened to a newly treasured passage of scripture, Psalm 103.   I have been camped out in Psalm 103 for the last month and last week Tim brilliantly suggested I commit it to memory.  This mornings reading is a follows:

"Bless the Lord O my soul and all that is within me, bless His holy name!
Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits,
who forgives all your iniquity,
who heals all your diseased,
who redeems your life from the pit,
who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy, 
who satisfies with good so that your youth is renewed  like the eagles."
Psalm 103:1-5

In my ESV commentary, it states that "Bless the Lord" means to tell speak well of Him for His abundant generosity.  I love that!  He has been abundantly generous with me, no doubt.   The scripture goes on to recount the Lord's benefits:

*He forgives our iniquities 
*He heals our diseases
*He redeems our life from the pit
*He crowns us with steadfast love and mercy
*He satisfies us with good and renews our youth like the eagle

As I read of the Lord's abundant generosity the Spirit of God began to lift my broken spirit.  He forgives my iniquities- my unbelief that He will sustain me, my grumbling spirit, and my "woe is me" attitude. He heals our diseases, mental and physical.  He redeems our life from the pit.  He took me from the pit and has been faithful to never leave me-no matter if my pit was self induced, deserved, or undeserved.  He crowns us with steadfast love and mercy.  Steadfast-unwavering love and mercy.  He satisfies us with good. Period.
He renews our youth like the eagle.  I certainly need to be renewed as I have a newborn and a two year old!

In no way am I convinced that I have mined these scriptures for their true worth.  This is just what the Lord spoke over me this morning.  I do know that all of these things can be found in and through Jesus Christ and it is the beautiful Gospel that renewed my mind on this dreary morning. This is the beautiful Gospel that enables me to smile at Sammy boy who stepped in the cat's water, plays on the stairs ( a big no-no),  and pulled off  the rest of Luke's umbilical cord (yuck).  It is the Good News that reminds me to have patience with my Sarah who really just wants to help me and be a blessing.  And it is the freedom that the Gospel brings that enables me to relax when my teenager Justin, well behaves just like a teenage boy should.

Thanks you Lord for saving a wretch like me.  Thank you for your abundant generosity that you daily bestow on your children. 

Bless the Lord O my soul and all that is within me, bless his holy name!

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Our current events

If I physically wrote down every blog post I thought of, I would probably be updating my blog at least once or twice a day. Obviously, lately that has not been the case. For now, just a few random thoughts and a brief look into our lives for the last few months.....

*IT'S A BOY!  We are expecting our 4th child and our 3rd boy May 5th! I am very excited for Sammy boy to have a little playmate and it should work out beautifully that they will eventually share a room together.

*Sammy thinks the ornaments on our Christmas tree are shiny pretty balls.  Needless to say, we now have fewer shiny pretty balls on our tree. :)

*Tim had two weeks of vacation in November and early December. It was so wonderful to have him home. We played a lot of Farkle and UNO. The kids loved having him home and so did I.  We enjoyed so many rich and thought provoking conversations. Today is his second day back at work and I miss him being here so much.

*I think I am going to paint (have Tim paint) our kitchen Lime Sorbet and our entry way and really nice goldish yellow color.

*A Sarah Grace quote: "Mommy, I wish I had Grace Kelly's wardrobe!"  Love this girl. :)

*We recently had a scare where we thought Justin had appendicitis, it turns out he pulled a stomach muscle playing football with his Daddy.

*Why do women post pictures of themselves in bikinis on Facebook? I'm just saying........

*I have not purchased even ONE Christmas gift.  Oh my!

*I cried this morning over_______________________. Yep, fill in the blank. I read Psalm 145 and was so comforted by the Lord's kindness and patience.

*I miss being with our families for the holidays. Maybe I will never get used to living out of state this time of year.  On that note, my mom is coming out for a visit mid January and my sister just might be visiting in February! :)

*Our church family has undergone so much suffering this year and yet there is such a spirit of praise and thanksgiving to God.  I am deeply challenged in all of my inward and outward grumbling about  meaningless difficulties.

*Tim bought the book, "The Valley of Vision" and read a prayer of thanksgiving to me last night before we went to bed.  I pray I can have a heart filled with gratitude like the Puritans, just beautiful and inspiring.

*Lastly, Sammy boy is yelling in his crib-reading time is over! I hope to get on here again very soon.

Until next time,


Monday, September 13, 2010

The Gospel

It's a slow start kind of Monday morning.  Praying this blesses you as much as it does me today!

(HT: JT)

Until next time,


Thursday, September 9, 2010

And the clock keeps ticking.....

I have a rare moment of silence in our home.  Tim took Justin to youth group and Sarah tagged along with him!  Sammy boy is now fast  asleep.  I sat down on the couch and thought about what I might do with my time.  I have been so convicted about all of the media I take in and we don't even do TV anymore.  However, I still have NETFLIX, social media, radio, and of course the Internet to peruse. I waste more time and it just kills me.

Today I read a devotional in John Piper's book, "A Godward Life-Book II". It  hit on all cylinders.  It was entitled, "Please Feed Me More, The Cry of Dying Faith".   His opening paragraph:  "Faith feed on the Word of God.  Without a steady diet it gets weaker and weaker.  If you are dissatisfied with your Christian courage and joy and purity of heart, check the way you are feeding your faith."  And that about sums it up.  Back to my first point about wasting time; I know that media in itself is not evil, it is the desire of my heart that I have a problem with.  The things I mentioned above are things that typically dull my affections for my Lord Jesus Christ.  After engaging in such things for too long, I am left feeling like an empty shell and dull in the mind.

So you might ask, how are you feeding your faith? Honestly, it's unsatisfactory. My morning devotional time with the Lord is just so short, mainly because I wake up just minutes before Samuel  and with that  the Mama hat goes on.  At this stage in the pregnancy, by nightfall I just want to climb into bed and sleep.  I can hear my dear friends telling me that it's just a season and this too shall pass.  But I know that this life is a vapor and I am not guaranteed tomorrow.  I don't want to waste another day with idleness!

And this is my prayer:
Lord God, thank Your for Your Holy Spirit Who convicts me of my sin and the precious blood of Jesus Christ that makes it possible for me to be in right standing before You. Please forgive me for my wastefulness and selfishness with the minutes of the day.   Please change my heart Lord. Please help me to desire You more and put to death the deeds of my flesh.  Please give me a hunger and thirst for Your Word,  for in that will I find true satisfaction.  As Your child, You created me for Your glory-please let it be.

Until next time,


Saturday, September 4, 2010

Fall is in the air!

Fall is in the air!  Finally, a wonderful cool day here in TX!  Today the kids (including Sammy) spent most of the day outside, what fun!  We had a great summer and with a lot of family from Arizona coming out to visit. In fact, in six weeks time, we had 21 days of company.  The kids thoroughly enjoyed visiting with their cousins and their Aunts, I think we all did.

We typically start school around here after Labor Day, but this year decided to start a week early.  Everyone was ready to jump in and get rolling and that's quite refreshing for me as their teacher.  Tim is taking over History and Geography this year and it's already proven to be such a blessing.  He's a great teacher and the kids really enjoy the extra time with him.

We had some surprising news last week; it seems that the Lord has added to our family once again!  I am expecting and the Lord willing, due in May!
May the Lord bless you and keep you and my His face shine upon you and give you peace.

Until next time,